Chapter II “Anger begets anger”

I began to understand something and not understand anything at the same time... I was angry at the whole world! But the only thing I needed to be angry at was myself. My greed and lack of awareness of reality drove me into dangerous circumstances in which I could lose everything I cared about... The angrier I got, the more negativity came into my life... my life was changing dramatically again, but I no longer felt pleasure, I felt I was sinking deeper and deeper to the bottom I no longer have my favorite job, I have no money, I spend all of my savings to maintain at least my previous standard of living, I am at a dead end, I feel like the captain of a sinking ship, instead of patching up the holes I thoughtlessly siphon water out of the ship After a while I am completely burned out, I am no longer a bright firework, I am just a burning match...